Such is life..

Circumstances building up around has and is leaving me pretty much gutted. Want to fight them out and put them to rest forever; am always in a constant tussle with them and the thoughts that arise as a result. Sometimes, I emerge victorious, however the other times, am grounded! Sounds quite strange...but this is I guess the worst kind of battleground that one can ever encounter..The times when I lose out, am left frustrated, severly irritable and of course drained out. Everyone here wants to be loved or at least be felt remotely significant and when it doesn't happen...its traumatic..! It's strange but true that circumstances and situations do force people to change immensely....so much so that it's like you don't want things to change but there is this strange force that makes everything change around you and the worst part is you can sense it..actually see it happening but can't do much to change or stop it. And then you feel completely smothered with feeling of disgust, always choked with tears and emotions...it's quite terrible. Just about when you try and get around these things and try to get back to normalcy...it strikes you yet again...harder than the last time..